Letters from Korea.

Sitting on the couch at the apartment.

In Korea Of course.
Conor is using Jason's computer

as I study the Korean alphabet.
Feeling kind of down.
One thing that hasn't changed in my life

is my dislike for the people I let in.
Skimming through facebook helped me realize this.
I can't wait for Drew to come back.

I have so many things I would like to talk to him about.
hmm.

I find myself questioning things lately.

questioning where I am

where I'm going
who I'm with.
Everything.
I have a mental health appointment in May
although my episodes have subsided for the time being.
I'm back to being unconcerned about whatever it is that is wrong with me.
I'd love to smoke some grass right now.
auh.

Tonight is the staff Christmas party for Tylor's work.
Going to a bar with the boys and girls.
probably won't drink much.
May just.

We'll see I guess.
Phone's all charged so we;ll get some pictures.

I need to write a super personal feelings blog at some point before I explode.
Drew's the only person I feel like talking to about it and I'm not sure I can wait till he comes back.
Either way, glad we're going to continue on as bffs
:3

▲iMar

Some Quotes.

“There are some people who meet somebody that they can never stop loving, no matter how hard they try. I wouldn’t expect you to understand that, or even believe it, but trust me, there are some loves that don’t go away. And maybe that makes them crazy, but we should all be lucky enough to end up with somebody who has a little of that insanity. Someone who never lets go. Someone who cherishes you forever.”

“Never allow someone to be your priority while allowing yourself to be their option.”

~ Gabrielita

Risk more than others think is safe.

Care more than others think is wise.

Dream more than others think is practical.

Expect more than others think is possible.

~ Claude Bissell

Time, be on my side.

“Although I am into it, I think you’re a little more into this then I am.”

It's because of past experience
but I can't help but go back to it when I get into a mood.
It makes me wonder how stable this actually is

and feel doubt about the future.

doubt that I don't want to have.
Obviously.

I hope time is on my side.
I love him so much,

it scares me.
=[

▲iMar

The Nightmare Before Christmas.

When emotions are high,
intelligence are low.
So, situation of the now

I need to get my birth certificate,
which is located at the rents.
I need this to get a pasport
that is going to take over a month to get

which means if i don't send away for it this week

I can't go to Korea.

I texted mom
and got in a tiff
because her and dad are under the impression that

I can not afford to go to Korea.
so mom's not looking to see if this 100 dollar

piece of identification is somewhere amongst my belongings,

Basically it boils down to this:
Conor is going to be gone on Christmas and new years
He will be gone for two weeks.
he will be in KOREA FOR TWO WEEKS!
Where I could be for two weeksif it wasn't for my fucking parents.

If i Don't go I am not going to Antigonish
to be with the people who's fault it is going to be

that I am misrable
and missing out on a once in a life time opertunity.
I'm getting mad right now

because \I'm in a mood and I cna't blog the way I want to

and my mind is running rampid.
I\m going to smoke a bowl.

Hillary's spell check won't work

iMar.

30 Day photos.

I'm going to do this every month,

so instead of starting at one I'll start at 17th

Day 01 - A picture of yourself with fifteen facts.

Day 02 - A picture of you and the person you have been closest with the longest.

Day 03 - A picture of the cast from your favorite show.

Day 04 - A picture of your night.

Day 05 - A picture of your favorite memory.

Day 06 - A picture of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day.

Day 07 - A picture of your most treasured item.

Day 08 - A picture that makes you laugh.

Day 09 - A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most.

Day 10 - A picture of the person you do the most fucked up things with.

Day 11 - A picture of something you hate.

Day 12 - A picture of something you love.

Day 13 - A picture of your favorite band or artist.

Day 14 - A picture of someone you could never imagine your life without.

Day 15 - A picture of something you want to do before you die.

Day 16 - A picture of someone who inspires you.

Day 17 - A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently.

Day 18 - A picture of your biggest insecurity.

Day 19 - A picture of you when you were little.

Day 20 - A picture of somewhere you'd love to travel.

Day 21 - A picture of something you wish you could forget.

Day 22 - A picture of something you wish you were better at.

Day 23 - A picture of your favorite book.

Day 24 - A picture of something you wish you could change.

Day 25 - A picture of your day.

Day 26 - A picture of something that means a lot to you.

Day 27 - A picture of yourself and a family member.

Day 28 - A picture of something you're afraid of.

Day 29 - A picture that can always make you smile.

Day 30 - A picture of someone you miss

Maybe this is lame but...

My previous post was a result of my moods.
I'll be getting that looked at very soon;

I promise.

Communication is a small issue some times

but it's not putting our relationship in the red zone.
And we've both been getting better about it.

The way I feel with Conor can't be described.
I just feel like I'm finally in the right place
and I'm not expecting an end.
I am living for the future.
I Love You.
♥

▲iMar

Disconnected.

I feel disconnected.
Just to watch you write a message
your toughs:
from your mind to the screen.
I feel that this is the closest I have been

to knowing what you're thinking
about anything.

I want Communication.
I want you to let me in.
=[

▲iMar